Wednesday, February 26, 2014

Adoption-The Nudging

I feel impressed to start sharing about our road to adoption.  This is difficult for me, as I still battle allowing myself to dream and believe. What if I get my hopes up and it doesn't happen?

But, then I am convicted.  Shouldn't our hope always be up as Christians?

Why would there be such a strong desire in my heart to adopt if I wasn't supposed to?  Why would my husband be totally open to it if we aren't to do something with that?

This is a desire in my heart that I have carried for 13 years!

This entire issue is so precious and personal and intimate to me that it is hard to lay it out there and share it.  

If you know me, you know I am pretty open about all things.  I see no good come out of living a fake life, avoiding transparency in relationship, or keeping on a mask that isolates us from one another.

But, when it comes to this I struggle putting my dream out before the world.

Nevertheless, not my will be done, but God's.  I feel the nudge that it is time, and so in the days to come, as He enables me to release my treasured dream, I will share how this is unfolding.

Friday, February 21, 2014

Things Stirring

Happy Friday blog world!

It's been a pretty good week for us aside from the migraine I had.  I hadn't had one in a while, and I definitely didn't miss it!

But, life goes on.  Otherwise, I am feeling so much better these days and getting more accomplished.  

I have had a lot of interesting prayer time with the Lord lately, and we are moving closer to adopting I believe.  It seems this year is going to be a big year for us, with August being an important month, but I don't know how the details will play out.

We are waiting, listening, preparing, anticipating.

Meanwhile, I will have a junior next year and that means it is time to look at colleges!

EEK!  That just seems unbelievable!  And to think of graduating one and potentially adopting a baby or two...

Well, who knows but God how it will all work out, but I am determined to walk out His plan for our family.  I am resolute that I will trust Him with the details and not be anxious about anything!

I'm confident it will all be beautiful in the end.

We just gave our checks to sponsor our two students in Nicaragua.  I didn't get to go with the mission team last year, and I don't think it is God's plan that I go this year.  That is hard!  My letter from our sweet Deiling ended with, "I'll be waiting for you."   

I wish you could see these precious children when they see us.  They wait and look forward to visiting with us and those hugs are the BEST!  But, I have to do what the Lord leads and not what my flesh wants.

God even opened the door for us to sponsor more children this year, so there are even more connections to be made. But, I will wait for His timing to take us there.  I must be obedient above all things...even when it crucifies me.

Anyway, lots going on in my heart, but not sure how to articulate all of it today.  I'll try to write the full post on adopting soon :)

Thursday, February 13, 2014

Sickness OVER!

Finally, we seem to be over the viruses that assailed us!  We have been very busy with schoolwork and other projects.  We've had lots of time stuck in the house because of all the snow and ice, but with all three boys needing computers to do school, I haven't been able to blog.  I am now typing from my new computer my honey got me for Valentine's Day!  He had tried to get me one before, but it just wasn't working well and had to be returned.  Now I have this fancy thing I have to try to figure out!  hmmmmm

Tom was sent on a week-long trip to CA where he won engineer of the year for his region!  That was super exciting for him.  After years of hard work and having his dream of being an officer in the military crushed by a back injury, it was sweet to hear that he has been recognized for outstanding service.  He was also rewarded a trip to a very nice resort in Mexico for the two of us!!!

So, of course that means I am now in work-out mode getting ready for the beach.  EEK!  It should be a fabulous time.  We never really had a honeymoon.  We spent the four days after our wedding driving to Washington to Tom's new submarine.  This should be a lovely trip for us as we approach 18 years of marriage!

Garrison is currently in physical therapy three days per week for a neck injury he got a few years ago playing tackle football.  His neck has hurt ever since, but finally we have better answers and the therapy is helping.

Alex went for a check-up with the eye specialist.  Thankfully, the histoplasmosis scars have not gotten bigger like they had last time.  As long as they don't stretch and tear, he is good.  If they were to tear, this could cause bleeding in the eye.  If he has any changes in his vision, we have to look at the only questionable therapy known: injecting a colon cancer drug into his eye of all things.  No thank you.  Let's just be done with it all please!

I am happy to say that I have been seeing great improvements in my health.  I have been on doTerra's Lifelong Vitality Pack for almost a month and using their various essential oils daily for different issues.  I cannot rave enough about how they are helping me!  I have energy again.  I am sleeping again.  I have had no migraines!  On and on, success after success with these oils!  I'll have to do a specific post about that sometime soon.  

So not too much happening right now, other than our busy daily grind.  Oh wait!  I did just get to go on a retreat with my homeschool momma pals!  That was a blast!  I will write more about that over on Our Learning Pursuit if you want to connect to that through this blog. :)  

Happy trails everyone